131.4 pounds. I feel like I am shriveling away. **Trigger warning** I am off work this week. A part of me is thankful for the opportunity to take care of some home projects. A part of me hopes this will give me the opportunity to recoup some hours of sleep that I miss out on […]
No more Zoloft, 133.8 pounds Back in September, I started dating “The Actor.” He was classically handsome. Some might say beautiful. He was communicative, expressive, and expressive. On our first date, I knew I was in trouble. I was instantly smitten. I originally met The Actor on OkCupid. Everything in his profile sounded great, with […]
How much heartbreak can the human body endure? Are we made to experienced repeated loss, or does it take it’s toll on our mind, body, and spirit over the years? As I have hit the age of 39, I can’t help but think that I can’t keep putting myself through the pain of failed relationship […]
It was mid-May at this point. The trifecta of unrequited dates had occurred. I caught some cold/cough bug and decided to stay inside to rest. After being cooped up in my home for a few days, I finally ventured outside to get something out of my car. Tucked under my wiper blade was a small […]
Rejection. It’s a part of life. For me, it’s a constant theme. In the end, I feel undateable. Why have me when there is something else out there that is surely better? How many guys are there who contact women on Match, and then after a couple of exchanges, **Poof!**, they disappear? What’s the point? […]
2 months on Zoloft, 137.2 pounds It’s been a month or so since my last post, and much has happened. I had a birthday. I unfriended and subsequently blocked SP on facebook. I put myself back on match again. I had a date with new guy. I got rejected by new guy. Oh, good times. […]
Day 19 of Zoloft regimen. Weight: 134.2 pounds. This was my engagement ring, 4 years ago… It was a beautiful ring, but was based on lies. Unfortunately, I didn’t discover the lies until after he proposed. Fortunately, I discovered the lies before the wedding. I wrote off that relationship as a freak occurrence. It took […]
Day 14 of Zoloft. Weight: 134.4 pounds. My nausea is mostly gone, and my appetite has increased. I have felt like I have ate so much in the past few days, but was surprised (and relieved) to see that I didn’t weigh more. I have still not returned to yoga, due to the nausea and […]
Day 6 of Zoloft. Weight: 133 pounds. I have not had much of an appetite as of late, and I feel I have even less of one since I started the Zoloft. I barely touched my dinner last night. My friend begged me to eat, but I felt so full. I took the rest home, […]
Day four of Zoloft. Weight: 134 pounds. It had been a long time since I had dated anyone. I had a few brief stints since the end of my engagement four years ago, but nothing serious. I was open and ready for a new relationship. Then I met SP (not his real name or initials, […]
Repairing Hope 